My affair with A & E

I seldom talk about my personal stories in this blog. This time, I'll talk about my (love) affair with A & E in my tertiary education. It's also a journey of my self-discovery, helps me understand my likes and dislikes and make up my mind with certainty.

My affair with A started since high school. I first knew A when I was joining my friends in a party and chit-chatting with them. A didn't catch my attention at first sight and was not very well-known and popular among my friends, so I didn't really get to know A personally. Subsequently, I met A in another occasion, then I started noticing about A. I started chatting with A to find out more about A. A was shy though, and I couldn't really have the chance to get to know A well. I tried to find A's friends and ask them about A to get to know A better. Though A was not popular among my friends, I still managed to learn more about A through various sources.

My affair with A really started when I entered university. I met A quite often, nearly everyday. From then, I get to know A really well. I discovered that A was very intelligent, very sophisticated (knew a lot of weird and funny, but highly technical stuffs) but was also very shy and very quiet. A was not good at expressing feeling in words, that's why A didn't really chit-chat a lot with me when I met A. I could also barely communicate with A, though I met A nearly everyday. I ate lunch with A, go to library with A and brought A back to my room. So that was how my first year relationship with A, not much talking and communication, but still manage to maintain a fairly good relationship.

Apart from A, in my first year, I also met with E, another friend of mine. E was really very charming, always had a pleasant smile on the face. E's dressing was more retro. E liked the old British style of dressing up, so I always met E wondering if E was from another era. Despite E's weird old British style of dressing, E managed to catch my attention too. I was really attracted to E after my first conversation with E. E was very passionate about human behaviour and E's worldview really amazed me. I had a very pleasant and enjoyable intellectual discussion with E and I really thought that E was a very intelligent and ambitious person. So gradually, I began to shift my attention to E. As time passed on, my affection for E grew stronger and stronger, I felt really interested in E and I spent a lot of my time with E than with A. However, I didn't really mention to A about E. I just told A that I was getting busier as there were more works to do, so I had less and less time meeting A. A didn't mind me spending less time together, as long as I can accompany A and study together with A during exam period. A was very particular about exams, that's why A always wanted me to study together. While I was studying with A, I would always think about E, and wondering how good it would be if I had been able to spend more time with E.

However, I didn't really want the affairs to continue like this. I wanted to make up my mind and decide who I wanted to be with for the rest of my life. I was quite sure that I was no longer that interested in A. So I intended to break-off my relationship with A. Eventually, I told A about it and A was a bit sad, but I told A that I hope we could still be friends in time to come as I really learnt a lot from A. A taught me how to see things differently, though A couldn't express feeling well, A had a flair in analyzing complicated situations and summarizing them in a very useful and succinct ways. A taught me how to use sophisticated methods to summarize things and transform them into very useful information. I really owed A a lot and I can never thank A enough throughout the years. However, I knew that things cannot go on like this forever, I must make up my mind. I had chosen to dedicate my life to E.

After spending sometime with E, my interest in E grew even more, not less. E always fascinated me with E's broad knowledge of how the world works. E was also very passionate about poverty and had been pondering on the problem endlessly. I really like to discuss with E about these issues-- poverty, suffering, government policies, environment, human behaviour etc. I can spend my whole night talking with E without feeling tired-- I was really deeply in love with E. E's compassion about many social issues causes me to rethink about my own opinions and positions on these issues. I used to have a lot of unrealistic assumptions, biased views and baseless impressions about many social issues, but E, with patience, had always explained to me why my positions don't make sense. E's influence on me was profound, if there is one person that ever changes my stand on many issues, it must be E.

Currently, I'm still enjoying my relationship with E. I'm glad that I have found out who I really like and want to spend the rest of my life with. I'm so thankful that I have the opportunity to know E, who eventually becomes the most important person in my life. Of course, I'm also thankful to A and I expressed my heartfelt apology to A for my cheating.

Now, wanna know who is A and who is E
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Don't need to crack your head. A= actuarial science, E= economics, friends= my books & magazines

(Inspired from a joke by my friend, WX)